Day 59 Buying

I really realized that I always want to buy something to make me feel a certain way.   And even if I have a project that I want to do I will buy something to go with that project and never do it.  What is up with that.   It really is a point of awareness.  I want a motor cycle and why I really want one is the way it makes me feel.  Can I feel like that without the cycle?  I have bought many a notebook for a new project.  And forgot what the project was and go buy at least 2 or more notebooks for the same project.  I love to buy.  It has been a habit from many years ago.  That is why we want a bigger house, a cooler car, a new outfit.  Because it may make you feel a certain way for a little while.  I wanted to buy many things today for my new bathroom to make it feel the way I want it to feel.  buying buying buying.   I will notice this habit.  I will do something else instead of that habit for a while.   I stopped drinking because it wasn't very good for my life.  This buying isn't any better for my life than drinking.  I buy clutter and get rid of clutter,  I am a behind the door clutterer but most people have got to see my clutter lately.  I guess that is a good thing.  I am not hiding it any more.   Let us be free like the motorcycle makes me feel.  Thank you...