I left a part of me at the ocean. I have asked to leave that part many times in my life. The part that doubts me, that won't stand up for herself. Anything like that. The great great ocean and spa along with a night without much sleep lead to a picture of a shadow of me walking towards the wild waves and leaving me. I have always been like two people, I thought it was special to be so broken and hiding in my own self pity. Well, that isn't what I am thinking now. I must have lived the life that I was supposed to live. That is hard for me to say. We create our own reality well, where is my dreams and aspirations. Either I didn't believe in them enough or I didn't do any work towards the goal. What goal? Did I have a goal? Was it clear? Do I really know what I like the most? I will keep looking for the answers to these questions and get in the groove. Not the Grove.
Ha. Well, this is the second day of the 60 year old. I will not sabotage myself. I won't hold a grudge towards the friends that didn't tell me happy birthday. Or will I? We will see.
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