Day 47 Puking

I puked and it was before work.  I had coughed so much that I puked.  And I really wanted too.  I thought if I could just  puke I would get that shit out of me.  Well that didn't get rid of it but I think I know what is going on.  It is the fear for my life and it is still in me.  I am angry and have no way to get this shit out of me.  I wish I did.  I wish I could get it out.  I think I am afraid to get rid of it.  OH, what a life we live.  Oh what suffering we can know.  Whitney Hustons life was filled with too much drama.   And she is gone.  Demi Moore isn't gone but she has so much drama in her life.  All these stars have too many dramas.  i guess it