Day 48 Surrender

I have to surrender I am ill of some sort.  This is going to be a long day.  I surrender to new things that I have found out about myself.  That I am more like my mother than I would ever ever want. Not the great things. The way she hd her feelings and hated what dad did.  I have learned how to do that.  I have done that with every man in my life. Like now. Let us have health and love and quiet mind please.  Birthday is coming.  Still sick but a little better I would think.....