Day 54 Sang

Yes, Sang.  I had a huge breakthrough this morning.   During my Buddhist meditation on a cushion I explored my body sensations and got hooked up with the deep deep sounds that I have never made, and the shadow that I believed that was inside of me, it came out in a kind of strange gibberish like a foreign language.  You hide from pain and this was deep pain.  It was deep fear, it is my deep cough and it is a deep true singing voice.  Or my vocal capacity.  I sang in the car like I have never sang before.  i sang from a whole new place.  Whole, it sounded whole and connected and in tune, powerful, expressive and my perfect voice.   I crave it.  I am afraid I will never sing like it again.
It is all on the journey of my life and expression.   I was studying my voice again, on my own, by reading books and freeing up and finding new placements for my voice.  This then I got Adeles CD and I sang with it and found a deeper voice a more powerful voice inside me sometimes.   I loved it.  Adele is like a singing god to me sent to me only to help nurture my voice, my expression, my vocal output.  I believe these things all happened in alignment.  I haven't told anyone else but it is my deep feeling on this.  To connect to what I gave up years ago and to find it in the 2nd day after my 60th birthday is such a gift.  I am so so grateful and will seek to re capture this expression for myself and then share it with the world.  This was my greatest desire as a child.  To be a front person.  To sing, to talk to the crowd, to express myself through my voice. Thank you, I appreciate the shortest of moments to learn to give this gift that I have been given and the gift that I had hidden all my life.