DAy 90 This week

A blog is a blog is a log ia a blog. I suppose I am supposed to cook a dinner now.  After eating too much,   I am abundant. I am rich, I am.  I am a positive living now.  thanks.

Day 89 Don't know

Went to the ocean and do you want to know the truth, we did about 10 things I don't enjoy.  But that is OK.
We rode in the car, I ate too much, we stayed in the room (I had a few great moments) Then we layed on the bed and watched 3 hours of tv.  I really have blocked my life out.  What I would really want to do, or is that really impossible to be around positive people. that want to create and sit in the quiet and walk and read great books,,etc.  What am I?   I am?  this is always a great thing.

Day 88 End

OK. the end of home for a couple of days we are going to the Ocean while it will rain all day and night.  Cooper will be with Linda Lee.   The end.  I cleaned a house, had two meetings and I am a little tired.  So there.

Day 87 Where

Where am I?  Am I stuck in some vortex of time.  I can't keep up with the days.  I am going going going gone.
I lost some days. This is so weird.  I am waiting and wasting time and it still went by.  I am stuck right now in another warp of not dealing with reality or what is in the moment or what.  Cooper usually is a pretty good gage and he is out of sorts.  Gary has a headache.  We are just letting our lives pass us as if they were going to last forever.  This life isn't. I have trouble feeling my own energy with others in the house.  I ask for help.  I can easily make 1,000,000,000 I know it is there for the asking.  May I ask.  Yes, I may.  Universe of abundance, I know this is possible. I want clear guidance to this incredible, exciting reality in my life.  It is not a dream, not a fantasy, not living in my bubble.  This is in my DNA.  This is and has been a knowing inside me.  I told Cheri years ago.  I told Mona years ago.  Let's make a million dollars.  It is possible.  I still believe that.  Clear guidance, actions, compassion, love connection, power.  And so it is.  I am so excited, I feel the energy of this abundance, I breathe  it, my blood flows from my heart pumping this divine destiny.  The doubts are exposed as false, not the truth of who I am, of who we are.  With this I flow in this day with unlimited potential, unlimited energy, and full of what it is I am made of.  Basic goodness, compassion for all, freedom to be the who I am.  I am asking clearly, directly and with the love of my heart.I want a million dollars.  I release all fear and receive this abundance with love and my gratfulness fills my hearts and all the hearts I can support with their dreams. Thank you , thank you, thank you.  My heart is overcome with gratefulness.  And with this abundance I willbuild an empire of abundance for many. Thank you.

Dat 85 All Day

Worked longer than usual.  I made it and it was ok.   I have some more days off and I am liking that.  I am developing ideas in my head....thanks.....love me

Day 82 Story

Stories have been around since the grunting and groaning times I hear.  So I declare stories are stories, they are not good or bad they are a way that we can learn.  That is now Buddha pass down the teachings of all the Buddhas before them.  I do not know what I say.  I started to design my poster or my brochure or my book, or booklet.  I have a very clean design in mind.  I have a design that can be seen and recognized from.  I do not know what I say.   I keep saying that.  Good night and I have to work for a really really long time tomorrow but I have had 2 whole days off that were surprises.  And now that is awesome.     Love me  I am going to go listen to a story called Money Ball.  Tell me good luck.  OK...thanks....

Day 81 How?

How did I loose so many days?  I thought I was keeping track of all the days.   Well, surprise snow day and it was fun.  Just quiet and catching up on magazines etc.  hubby, cooper andme. stayed warm, ate, snuggled. everything you do on snow days.   Cooper loves the snow......No electricity for over 10 hours and that was even awesomer.  Love me

75 Fearless

I am doing this for the world not for me.  I am doing this to move the energy from fear to love.  I am doing this for compassion, fun, light and love.  Thank you universe for this challenge, no for this opportunity.  I better practice my routine...love me...

Day 75 What?

That is what I say What?  I am having trouble sleeping because life is so great.  I paint and finished my picture, I sang, started a new song late last night.  Anyway this is awesome.  I am watching the voice and dancing with the stars.   trying to keep up with both.  I have a performance  tomorrow and people are coming and I really don't want to get nervous.  How can I   I had wonderful moments during the day of connection like nothing else.  I did that last night with my singing also.  A new place to go to create.  I want more of that.  More of me. More of me.  Yes,  Tomorrow I just haves to have fun and not worry about being funny.  Just be myself.  I don't care if I forget something.  I really don't want to forget my parts though,  I won't.  I will keep on going. Yeah

Day 74 Intimate

Being intimate with oneself.  Am I being self indulgent or focusing on what I love.  Here is the cover for my children s book We're all made of the Same Stuff.  It is a song I wrote and now it is a sketch coloring book with the lyrics.  Thank you wise universe that is bigger than me.  I don't know where I came up with the idea and I went through fear to paint this.  Maybe some of the fear is the size of this picture it is my largest one to date.  And it cost a lot to buy the canvas and I was scared that I would just screw it up.  It is in the making and I like taking a picture of it and not seeing all the goofs that I made.  But I did it.  I a seeing how I stop myself by thinking I am taking care of myself.  All the meditation and wather and quiet time.  I am not out spreading my energy everywhere.  do I have to do that to get what I want.  Do I know what I want.  My soul is loving the creating and my body and mind have been stopping be out of fear.  Fear of letting my light shine.  Fear of being happy more that a moment.  Because I could die when I get too happy.  What a hoot.  Speaking of hoot I have to practice my comic set for Tuesday.  I am so grateful and feel good about getting this done and going past the fear.  I love it...thank you.

dAY 73 STUFFING

stuffing my stomache.  Don't really want to but I am.  Something I am hungry for and I don't know what it is.  Want a drink, want to be comforted, self medicated, something.  Can't really put a name on it.  I now have to stop all of this eating.  Please help me to figure out what I am hungry for.  I am not motivated.  I just want to go to bed.  I don't pick up my guitar, I don't paint, or write.  Was I overwhelmed.  I did practice my comedy scene.  I hurt fell and hurt my rib cage.  It hurt.  I will live and I am glad.  OK let us get something together.
love m

Day 72 Late

Home late from work.  Do you care?  I want to write what you would care about.  Who will you meet today that will change your life?  I am taking a look at my life and how I do things.  I have more that 20 things going on and if I just focused on one thing just think How awesome that could be.  So what about you?  Well, it is late and I am going to stop this conversation on here but I will keep it up in life.

Day 71 Inspired

I spent money and went to a networking teaching event.  I wanted to hear what she had to say.  Her and I connected.  It was the kind of connection that I want and love.  It has the spirit of our souls and hearts.  I really am getting that I am that.  I don't have time for the drama and crap.  At least that is my  take on it.   I want to give up my old ability to drop into a pit and replace it with the love, respect, self acceptance.  I was called a visionary today.  And I am.  I am finally finding the labels that feel correct for who I am.  I have never been able  find where I fit in this world.  Another one was an early adopter.  I love it.  I have found an intuitive healer is also myself.  Why do we have to get so old to have enough guts to get out and be who we are and how to shares that.  How to sober up to the reality that you want to experience now with the clearest mind you can have.  Maybe the older mind isn't all that clear.   Will I get started and then stop again.  Will I become attached to the results, NO.  Thank you and let us move on.  She wants me to do more of her classes before she sees me as a partner.  That is OK.  I don't know whether I will be able to do her next and next and next workshops. I have other things to put my money into.  Anyway.   Let us have a wonderful night full of fantastic Ideas and feelings.  Thank you...

Day 70 Fragile

Yes, life is fragile and I don't want to worry or doubt when I can be here right now and enjoy this moment.  I want to keep this going, this feeling of living in the moment.  Loving and accepting myself, funny or not funny.

Day 69 Monday

Yes, it is  Monday and I really did change everything I was going to do because of doing things with hubby.  We got new tires and lots of stuff at Costco.  So that was fun.  I still had time to work on my comedy this evening.  I made a great dinner and I am feeling a little weird these last few days.  Like physical.  I wouldn't want to die or have some kind of disease.  I want to move on and do stuff.  Lots of stuff.  I have done quite a few new things recently.  A battle with myself.  I am doing things and at the same time doing if for all mankind and I don't even know how that works.  I am stretching myself for others.  I have to do that somehow.  For some reason.  HOT FLASH was for that ...for others.  My comedy is for others to step out and get out of their own fear factors.   That is me.......love, laughter, light l i n d a Jo Jo

Day 68 Cleaning Up

I cleaned up all day to get ready for Gary.  Well after I went to a silk screen class.  I loved it.  I made my first image on a t shirt.  I want to  do more... then I cleaned the house to get ready for hubby to get home......

Day 67 Saturday Art

There are many things that I have done this week or couple of weeks that I have never done before.  I took a screen printing class and I did my first print.  I am so excited.  It is something that I want to keep doing.  I want to sell t shirts with my own original images.  Maybe even for other people.  I went to Mopan, I helped with the Womans retreats.  I talked to people about my Web series.  I talked about AR to Heart in the winery.  I have tackled many ideas of my own.  Many creations of my own.   Tonight hubby comes home and I really have to keep my energy.  I will not give myself up any more for anyone.  OK  Cooper has to get ready for Gary too but how dies he do that.  I have to get over it.  I eas really a little overwhelmed this morning and noticed it and need to really stop when I loose myself.  When his energy or what he says gets to me.  I refuse to be lost.
So there.

dAY 66 wow

Learning things that I never ever knew.  Don't know if they are true or not.   How the world is working and I had no idea.   A police state.  Controlling the weather.  Using weather as a weapon.  I tried to stay away from these conversations but I need to know more about what people are hearing.  I don't want to be totally out of the loop.  Living in La La land....  I do want to do that but this world is my world and I have an imprint in it.
What do I want that to look like?

Day 66 Can't Make Me

I don't want to blog  But I am cuz I said I would every day.  I reallly had a long day and I have eaten too much but I learned alot and I had fun at work and what else.  I gained 3 lbs. and I don't like that and I saw how that really made me crazy.  My mind does crazy crazy stuff doing that food thing.  I let go of it.  I said that can't happen anymore and it didn't/.  I am brain dead but Cooper needs to stay up for a while.

Day 65

What will I say today.  I worked for a health clinic today and did blood pressure manually on 33 people.  So that is always fun.  I get 20 an hour.  I got tired of course, then felt weird of course then got ready and felt good.  That is just the way it is these days    I feel good then I feel weird.   My body is doing very very well though.  My brain or self love has wavered lately and it is a full moon.  A beautiful beautiful full moon.
Have a great evening and get some good good sleep and really love yourself.  Hubby is coming home soon, so get ready for that....love me

Day 64 Hi

I really really had a hard day,  I felt I was 5 years old and I had to get up and get humiliated in front of everyone.  I didn't know if anything was funny or not.   People started laughing so I got on a role.  I really had a great thing with the audience, and that is what I wanted more than anything.  I did it, i did it   I knew I could do it if I got over the fear.  But I didn't know if my stuff was funny.  People laughed, and I was in my body and I moved and had a personality.  This is one thing I have always wanted in my life.  Thank you God

Day63 Forgot

Did I forget yesterday.   Did I not live yesterday?  Was I too busy yesterday to remember my blog.  I blog you blog everybody blogs blogs.  I blog you blog everybody blog blog....blah blah blah..    I am working into a creative space. I am singing my blog. cuz I get dull and depressed and fight the creative process. I create and I destroy I am big and I am small and I am all all all.  This is my song today. the blog song blah blah blah blah blog.  I have to write a comic bit.  I think I am sick.  The dog ate it  .
The rain destroyed it it froze and the devil vomited on it  The end.

Day 62 Sunny

This day of sun really gets the flow going.  I talked to many people today.  Well, 2 phone calls out and one in.  These really were great because they were moving me forward to a group of people that can work together and make things happen.
How does that sound.?  I am focusing on how that felt.  It made me feel awesome to connect in a creative way.  I have a vision for a winery, I have people that I want to support for this event and then My web series.
I know it is for the Boomers.  Maybe that is what it could be called. Boomers.  I have it Re Tired.  But we are too young for that.  I think the Boomers may be a way better name, we want people to watch.  How do we get that out.  How do we get the masses of the Boomers.   Well, I feel good about what I did today.  Focus on the good.  Not what you didn't do.  Right?  Right!

Day 63 Enjoy

This spring thing is making me feel awesome.  The weather is like 60 and the birds and the flowers think it is spring.  It gives me a feeling inside that I can't describe.  Then my brain went to those poor people that got their homes destroyed by tornado's.  That is weather driven and that would be so scarey.  I heard a big jet go over the other night when I was in the hot tub and I really saw how the end could happen any second.  It is that simple like one of our breaths and we could be gone.  An instant the whole world could change and with that fear it is hard to think of going on or going in the car or going outside or being alive.  We have to trust and be whole.  Trust that we are taken care of and things still happen and we will go on.  The word I chose for today was Enjoy and I went to deep tragedy.  So the link between those are that we need to enjoy every minute that we can and get off our worry horse.  I am grateful right now and I release clinging on the the good feeling.  Because that is trap within itself.  Just living in the moment with gratitude no matter what is going on is accepting life and what it brings. 

Day 62 Off early

What a really great thing to get off early on a sunny day.   I just ran out and spent money.  That is not what I really wanted to do.  Then I ate because I spent so much.  It is just a circle.  It is me not being in the moment and making a change and doing instead of buying...  I am taking the night off of getting down on myself.  Buy more stuff, eat more stuff.   Make less money.  Well, that is not what I am doing..  There is nothing wrong with me and all my stuff.  What do I want?  I am moving toward that.  What you focus on is what you  get.   I am working on moving forward, living in the abundance of our creative life.  Thank you so so so so much.

Day 61 Conceptual

Conceptual age.  That is now.  I am a right brainer.  Yeah>>>>>This is me now.  The news is in a new book called a new brain.  I think I may get that book.   I came to the deduction this morning that I am tired of just creating, I want to get my brain and Ideas out there in such a great great powerful way.  Thank you.
Tony Robbins said when you can't stand it any more is when you change.  And I am at that point.  I have to make new brain waves.  New ruts in my brain.  New power in my body.  New voice coming out.  Powerful and in Tune.  This is awesome.....I am going to listen more to this man on Oprah.  Now I am going to get the book.  I am focusing on the great things that I did today.  And the ones I will tomorrow.  And the things I will still do tonight. I realized there is really nothing wrong with me.  There isn't.....Yeah!!!  How about you?