Day 65

What will I say today.  I worked for a health clinic today and did blood pressure manually on 33 people.  So that is always fun.  I get 20 an hour.  I got tired of course, then felt weird of course then got ready and felt good.  That is just the way it is these days    I feel good then I feel weird.   My body is doing very very well though.  My brain or self love has wavered lately and it is a full moon.  A beautiful beautiful full moon.
Have a great evening and get some good good sleep and really love yourself.  Hubby is coming home soon, so get ready for that....love me

Day 64 Hi

I really really had a hard day,  I felt I was 5 years old and I had to get up and get humiliated in front of everyone.  I didn't know if anything was funny or not.   People started laughing so I got on a role.  I really had a great thing with the audience, and that is what I wanted more than anything.  I did it, i did it   I knew I could do it if I got over the fear.  But I didn't know if my stuff was funny.  People laughed, and I was in my body and I moved and had a personality.  This is one thing I have always wanted in my life.  Thank you God

Day63 Forgot

Did I forget yesterday.   Did I not live yesterday?  Was I too busy yesterday to remember my blog.  I blog you blog everybody blogs blogs.  I blog you blog everybody blog blog....blah blah blah..    I am working into a creative space. I am singing my blog. cuz I get dull and depressed and fight the creative process. I create and I destroy I am big and I am small and I am all all all.  This is my song today. the blog song blah blah blah blah blog.  I have to write a comic bit.  I think I am sick.  The dog ate it  .
The rain destroyed it it froze and the devil vomited on it  The end.

Day 62 Sunny

This day of sun really gets the flow going.  I talked to many people today.  Well, 2 phone calls out and one in.  These really were great because they were moving me forward to a group of people that can work together and make things happen.
How does that sound.?  I am focusing on how that felt.  It made me feel awesome to connect in a creative way.  I have a vision for a winery, I have people that I want to support for this event and then My web series.
I know it is for the Boomers.  Maybe that is what it could be called. Boomers.  I have it Re Tired.  But we are too young for that.  I think the Boomers may be a way better name, we want people to watch.  How do we get that out.  How do we get the masses of the Boomers.   Well, I feel good about what I did today.  Focus on the good.  Not what you didn't do.  Right?  Right!

Day 63 Enjoy

This spring thing is making me feel awesome.  The weather is like 60 and the birds and the flowers think it is spring.  It gives me a feeling inside that I can't describe.  Then my brain went to those poor people that got their homes destroyed by tornado's.  That is weather driven and that would be so scarey.  I heard a big jet go over the other night when I was in the hot tub and I really saw how the end could happen any second.  It is that simple like one of our breaths and we could be gone.  An instant the whole world could change and with that fear it is hard to think of going on or going in the car or going outside or being alive.  We have to trust and be whole.  Trust that we are taken care of and things still happen and we will go on.  The word I chose for today was Enjoy and I went to deep tragedy.  So the link between those are that we need to enjoy every minute that we can and get off our worry horse.  I am grateful right now and I release clinging on the the good feeling.  Because that is trap within itself.  Just living in the moment with gratitude no matter what is going on is accepting life and what it brings. 

Day 62 Off early

What a really great thing to get off early on a sunny day.   I just ran out and spent money.  That is not what I really wanted to do.  Then I ate because I spent so much.  It is just a circle.  It is me not being in the moment and making a change and doing instead of buying...  I am taking the night off of getting down on myself.  Buy more stuff, eat more stuff.   Make less money.  Well, that is not what I am doing..  There is nothing wrong with me and all my stuff.  What do I want?  I am moving toward that.  What you focus on is what you  get.   I am working on moving forward, living in the abundance of our creative life.  Thank you so so so so much.

Day 61 Conceptual

Conceptual age.  That is now.  I am a right brainer.  Yeah>>>>>This is me now.  The news is in a new book called a new brain.  I think I may get that book.   I came to the deduction this morning that I am tired of just creating, I want to get my brain and Ideas out there in such a great great powerful way.  Thank you.
Tony Robbins said when you can't stand it any more is when you change.  And I am at that point.  I have to make new brain waves.  New ruts in my brain.  New power in my body.  New voice coming out.  Powerful and in Tune.  This is awesome.....I am going to listen more to this man on Oprah.  Now I am going to get the book.  I am focusing on the great things that I did today.  And the ones I will tomorrow.  And the things I will still do tonight. I realized there is really nothing wrong with me.  There isn't.....Yeah!!!  How about you?