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This is Buddha Cowboy!!!

Hello,  I really love to do a blog the day I have a private lesson.  While I am waiting for the person to come.  They are going to be late and that is just fine with me.  Hey what is up there......  I have had a kind of out of body afternoon. Being dressed in full outdoor clothes in the house.  I keep falling and knocking things over  I have big fat baby boots on right jeans 2 tight shirts a scarf.  I love the way it looked when I got back from looking good to go to costco.  What is today about. I am liking dressing nice.  I cleaned the wall's in the kitchen.  For nobody but me.  Not for Gary.   I remember being so uptight getting ready for Gary to come home.  Things have really really changed in me since then.  I am sober to many things in life now.  I still get some kind of anxiety but not like I used too.  I live my own life now in our house.  I don't stop doing what I do.  I want to get an EXpressions proposal, business plan ready and also just a flyer I can send to spiritual centers around.  I want to travel and do Expressions in different states. Thank you for this.  I am a Budda Biker.  Thank you very much.   love ya all...  I truly am filled up with something.  I have been exploring pleasing and anger and my past.   I am exhausted.  I just want to be quiet Buddha biker.  Emotionally challenged right now.

Day Fantastic

what does that mean?   Well, I got it again.  After things get weird, I realized that I just made it all up. I have no control over anything except my thoughts on things.  Something happens that is brand new and I react like a tape recorder.  I am paying attention to that and not doing that, but living in the moment with love and respect and determination.   Determination.  I got it.  I can and am everything that I ever thought I could be right now and there is no stopping me.  The bullys, the demons,  the boogie men that I thought had me in their grasp.  HA,  they are gone,  they were made up, there is no one here right now telling me anything but myself knowing I am it.!!   I am light, I am goodness, I am gentle kindness, I am all.  I am beauty , I am for all. I dedicate my life to being transparent, judgement free, acceptance.   There is no one out there to rescue me.  I am that I am.   Love me

Day Expressions

EXPRESSIONS    and a Private class

I am excited to say that I am having a private lesson today with a young lady / Now I am having a little Expressions party with the girls at work.  Some of them can't come and it makes me very sad as it was like I was young and my friends couldn't come very much.  Well I didn't have any friends until my neighbors became my best  friends.   I don't even keep track of them anymore.

Only two people showed up.  I thought maybe only one would show up.  No I cannot believe that no one came.  I am not upset, we had a great time. I know that the store is falling apart and their lives are way more  important than their commitments.  That is what I feel.  I was so sad like when I didn't have any friends in grade school.

We had pesto salmon and Halloween cake.  What a great deal.  I learned that this house will be really awesome to have stuff like this more.    This works.   I am this.  This is good.  This is happiness.

It is all good.