Day New

I am typing in bed.  blogging in bed.  Never take my computer away from it's holder.   I have got to do new things.  my body is hungry.  I need more and more and more learning and creating and doing.  I need to be around more and more people.  I give my gifts, I create my gifts.  I am I am I am.
  I am awake in my dream.   2 million it has to be 2 because then I already have one.  That is such fun.  I have art in gallerys, I sell moss, I sing and play and sell songs and I am in front of people all the time being.  I am being awake in my dream.  

I can not allow anyone to take that away from me.  Not even myself.  Our mind is like chicken wire.  It has big holes in it. 
Thoughts come in and out.  but if you are chicken you can't get out of the pen.   I am not chicken. I love chicken wire and I create magnificent things with it.

I have such vivid dreams that I wake up with the emotional hangover from them.  Sometimes not wanting to wake up. Sleeping is one of my great escapes.  writing on the computer and having a wonderful breeze come in the window is a brand new experience.  And I am really taking to this being so portable.

While awake in this dream I love many things.  My guitar, my cowboy boots, bunny, Cooper, my yoga matt, my cushion I meditate on.  My patio with the firepit.  I love my digital camera and working on the camera to make unusual effects.  I love my computer especially now that it can go anywhere with me.  HA.   I knew that. but just never did it.   I can email and look up things from here, what a great great deal.  Wireless,  Is this the first time I have thought of that.  HA.    good night.

Day before Expressions

I am asking for the universal abundance energy to guide me and allow me to get through the day tomorrow with the highest regard. for everyone.  I want to give the best workshop that I can and I have to run and give a performance also.I wanted to sell stuff, play music, do lots and lots of stuff that I am not doing.  And why?   Did I not do it fast enough?  Did I change my attitude with the world being like it is and my input on that.   NO  I refuse to allow bad news, bad talk to stop me give my gifts to all.  Thank you...love me

Day Ocean

What does that mean?  Oh a Heading is cool!! is this a new font.  why yes it is.  Inever messed with any of that stuff.   Nobody reads this anyway.  That is OK...actually that is Cool,  cuz then I can write anything that I want.  HA HA HA...Now I am trying some cool stuff.  Let;s see what else I can do.what does this look like.  kind of cool too.what does this do.  well i could just do this all day.  oh everything changed.  

this will change things. well. So let us get back to some normalcy here.  I am at the beach and it is good. The first day that I actually haven't had stomach pains.  So I am happy.  living in the moment.  Feeling I can do anything. and when you find what you were meant to do you feel awesome.  I don't want to die right now while I am feeling good.
I kind of thought once that if you felt too good it would be time to die.  I can actually sit and watch people and know I feel good.  I used to watch people and wondered, how could they be so happy.  I had no concept of how to have a day where I didn't feel like shit.  Drunk or not drunk it didn't matter.  It wasn't the booze.  It was the illusion of suffering that I lived in.  Now I refuse to live like that.  I don't want to live if I feel self hate anymore.   I want to share with everyone that they too can feel good.  Have an open heart and do the things that they want to do and make a million dollars, like me.  I am not waiting.  There are laugh clubs, laugh yoga and I want to have Expressions to be everywhere and for everyone.  Like a workout.   Franchise my dream.  yes, my dream.  I am Expressions.  I am love, I am a giant, I am a double millionaire. I am it all.  Thank you.www.infocusacting.com  
this will help you to be with me on my journey.  All ages.   love to all me

Day of Monday

This is so fun.  I have worked all day to get my business and my projects up and going.  Wow.  what a challenge and what a great opportunity to learn so much stuff.  I am so excited.  This million and owning my own business that becomes a franchise is one of the most exciting things in my life.  The book or workbook that goes with IN FOCUS and Expressions are in the works.  This million makes two million and on and on.  For my son to not be left with our debt but with a fortune that he deserves.  This love to you and to all this lovely monday. 

Day something else

Grieving,  wondering why we don't love when people are near.  Finding a friend is going away and I realize I have never accepted her talent, her beauty and her focus on the change in this plain.  I have been abusive of a relationship, selfish.  Very selfish.  I am saddened by the news of her leaving Veneta and moving away.   I feel as if I am loosing a very close friend even thou I didn't act on it when she was here.  I guess she would always be here.   Spirit be with her in love.  Expand the love everywhere.  Never stand in the darkness for long.   I won't.  Love more

Day something Saturday

This is an explosion of noise, right now.   wow all the tvs are on and i am not quiet or peaceful.  Stuffing my mouth.  love the million, then the next this is all good.   take this life and love it...good things for this......

Day 168 shine

I am a millionaire and I am on the cusp of another million.  This game of life is the very best ever.  I am playing these days.  I gave up and lived the small life like I was raised to be and that is not what  I really wanted,  but I didn't know any different.  I was squashed and very saddened about loosing my god, my spirit, my soul, my meaning and loving here on earth.  The earth school brought me to where I am now and I sing hallalula to it all.   I feel better than I ever have.  I re fuse to allow outside energy to stop me, make me stop what I create, of course I am open to all but I will not shut down for anything.  That is not what I am here for.  If I put you off, I am so so sorry.  And if you don't like me I don't care.  I cannot take care of you or make your life better.   I am me, I am strong I am love, I am kindness, I am generious, I am warm and compassionate and I love you.   But I will not be surrounded by negative energy and take it on.   I really don't enjoy being around it all the time.  I quit that job.  Genius, power and magic flow through me when I allow it.  When I know what I truly am.  I am energy living in this vehicle and I am enjoying it.  What a great idea to put us in bodys.  I ride for all women.  Freda Amelia.   I have a motorcycle right now I just am not sure where it is.   I ride my motorcycle for women.  For peace and power of woman.  The love that they are.  The way they create this world and make it a better place is worth celebrating.  Yes,  Womans day, not Mothers day.
But womans day.....I celebrate and ride.   I love my next million and my next.  I will give it to needy people and my son.  I love leaving a dynasty. Grateful is what I live in.  Thank you.  Health, love, gratitude,vitality, service,creativity,compassion, relationships, I will work on relationships.  I need to get out my prison on that.  And so it is.   I am sober in love.